i keep a sinister smile, and a hole in my heart.

Hey there! I'm going to be crazy busy this coming week, and won't be able to post, so I'm posting now. Since I posted recently I don't have much to say, but I'll try to think of something interesting to say. Oh, and in case you wanted to know about that situation with those guys...which you probably don't want to know I think I'll go for the one that makes me laugh. What point is there in liking someone that you can't laugh with, but whatever that's just my personal opinion. I for one am not into the "feeling like the only girl in the room" crap. That's what I want to talk about though. Girls, and their expectations. On valentines day some of us expect the most romantic possible day, or some of us just want a guy to give us a smile. I personally think that less is more, but some girls think the total opposite. Where do they get this idea of romance? The movies? Maybe so, but movies have million dollar budgets, and your average teenage boy...well not so much. Also not every guy is the type to write you a damn song! If he is totally embrace that, but if you want an emotionless piece of eye candy don't expect him to write you the most deep, thoughtful, romantic love letter in history, just don't! People need to get this cheesy ass idea of romance out of their heads, and think of reality. For example my idea of romance isn't waiting outside of every class for me. It's both people having a huge smile on their faces when they finally get to see each other during the day. That one minute where you cross paths could very well be the most amazing moment of the day. My idea of romance isn't kissing in the rain. It's the guy who pulls a weed from his neighbors lawn thinking that it's a flower, and giving it to you. That might be the cutest thing in the world. One of the greatest thing about guys is how clueless they are. Sure, sometimes it can be a pain in the ass, but when you finally snag a good one, and he's cluelessly in love. Well that might be the cutest thing in the world. So, what if he doesn't buy you a tiffany necklace? Screw that! It's the home made card, or the extra long hug that defines romance. At least for me. Some of you might say I'm cynical, and effing wrong. I say I appreciate the finer things in life. Forever Realistic, Sydney.

"The heart has reasons that reason cannot know."

-- Pascal