i've seen better days

Hey! It feels like FOREVER since I last blogged! I was watching GREEK which is an amazing show! I've seen every episode at least twice, and all of a sudden as I was crying cause my favorite couple broke up there are so many horrible things out in the world, and I'm crying because two fictional characters broke up? If you think about some boy all the time, why are you putting all this energy into him when you could be making a difference around you. I used to want to help others a lot. I used to work at food banks, and I felt great when I did. So, I decided instead of spending so much time moping around thinking about stupid boys, and fictional people I'm going to think about real people with real problems. Problems like hunger, the economy, war, and even literacy. Anything that can make a positive impact on the world around me. I'm not saying I'm cutting these "stupid" thoughts out of my mind, but I'm just adding new, better ones. So, I know I haven't done a personal mission in a while, but I think it's about time I send you guys on your next mission. If you find yourself bored, or find your thoughts being consumed on something that seems worthless. Help improve someone else's life! I think that you'll find that it will make yours better too. Until Next Time, Sydney.

How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world. ~Anne Frank

and i don't know why, i can't keep my eyes off of you

Heeeey (: so, my title is fromt the song You and Me by Life House. Have you ever felt that magnetic attraction to someone? That feeling that you have no clue why you like this person, but your so drawn to them it almost doesn't even matter? It's filling me with confusion. Do I really like them? I certainly don't like the idea of them, but I'm so drawn to them. Apparently he's drawn to me too, but something isn't connecting between us. It's almost like we can't admit it. I know I certainly can't admit it to him, and I even have a hard time admitting it to some of my best friends. It's almost like it's weird to tell him that I like him. It's kind of weird to like him though, so I suppose that makes sense. It's currently really weird, and awkward between the two of us, and I don't know what to do. It's like there's this big barrier right out there in between us, holding us back from something great. But then again who knows if it would be so great if we can't even talk about it. Sorry, this just keeps running through my brain, and is most likely boring you to death. It's just one of those things that I simply cannot get off of my mind. Whatever, the situation will be fixed when it's time, right? Confused as usual, Sydney.

love,love,love

hey guysss (:
I'm in the best mood right now, and it's amazing, Like cloud nine amazing. Go ahead, and find yourself some love because nothing's better than being the center of someone's world. ciao!-Sydney (:

because these things will change.

HEEEEEY. So, recently I decided I wanted my look to change, so I finally changed it! First change was I got my braces off! YESSSS <3 The second change however I made today. I dyed my hair auburny reddish brownish. I LOVE it. It's so much more classy, and me than stupid brown hair with blonde highlights. BLECCH. What was I thinking? My new hair is amazing ily my hair person for making it EXACTLY what I wanted. All these changes are making me feel better about myself every time I look in the mirror. So, although this is a very short post it has a very important message. That message is do what makes you happy. If changing your look makes you happy then do it! I did, and I'm so glad that I made the changes that I wanted to make. Gotta Scidaddle, Sydney.

if i go crazy then will you still call me superman?

Okay, so my title has nothing to do with what this blog is about just an fyi. It's just the lyrics to the song I'm listening too that i LOVEEE. Anyways I'm sure you all know the person I'm about to describe. That person who likes you a lot, but no matter how obnoxious you are to them, and how much you flirt with other people they STILL like you. Well right now I'm getting so annoyed with my person like that. It's like no matter what I do I can't get him to leave me alone. FML. I'm flattered really I am, but GO AWAY. kay thanks gotta go get ready for the masquerade with btedss (: xo.

but i've never met someone that i hate more

Hello Cyber Space, I'm back! (: Cabaret was great (especially the costumes) but it's time for me to move on, but something keeps stopping me. Hatred. You know that one person that you love to hate? Well this guy is who I'm talking about. The one that makes you laugh, smile, and feel great except for when he doesn't. Like seriously? Either this guy has serious PMS, is bi polar, or just is a bitch. I'm guessing it's the third one. Anyways he's the biggest bitch the world has ever known. I don't mind the ones that are flat out always bitches, but he'll love me one second, and be my best friend, and the next he's freaking annoying. I get that we all have our moments, but this isn't just a one time thing. Whatever, I'm already over it. No that I got that out ... TODAY WAS 65 DEGREES!!! (: I got to wear my first spring outfit (: happy saint patrick's day riiiight? Today was also an overall good day. Everything I did I did well. (even in physics) annnnd we started Romeo and Juliet in English. I know that's ridiculously dorky to like that, but i don't care. I'm sooo happy that I read ahead a little bit just cause I felt like it. Trust me, I haven't done that for any other book this year. Oh and my friend told me to look at this as a blessing rather than the curse i see it to be , but now I'm a fucking 34D. Like WHAAAT? I have no clue when that happened. Anyways I'm going to go make cookies because today is a great day, and I love life. I'll write a better post soon. -Sydney

i keep a sinister smile, and a hole in my heart.

Hey there! I'm going to be crazy busy this coming week, and won't be able to post, so I'm posting now. Since I posted recently I don't have much to say, but I'll try to think of something interesting to say. Oh, and in case you wanted to know about that situation with those guys...which you probably don't want to know I think I'll go for the one that makes me laugh. What point is there in liking someone that you can't laugh with, but whatever that's just my personal opinion. I for one am not into the "feeling like the only girl in the room" crap. That's what I want to talk about though. Girls, and their expectations. On valentines day some of us expect the most romantic possible day, or some of us just want a guy to give us a smile. I personally think that less is more, but some girls think the total opposite. Where do they get this idea of romance? The movies? Maybe so, but movies have million dollar budgets, and your average teenage boy...well not so much. Also not every guy is the type to write you a damn song! If he is totally embrace that, but if you want an emotionless piece of eye candy don't expect him to write you the most deep, thoughtful, romantic love letter in history, just don't! People need to get this cheesy ass idea of romance out of their heads, and think of reality. For example my idea of romance isn't waiting outside of every class for me. It's both people having a huge smile on their faces when they finally get to see each other during the day. That one minute where you cross paths could very well be the most amazing moment of the day. My idea of romance isn't kissing in the rain. It's the guy who pulls a weed from his neighbors lawn thinking that it's a flower, and giving it to you. That might be the cutest thing in the world. One of the greatest thing about guys is how clueless they are. Sure, sometimes it can be a pain in the ass, but when you finally snag a good one, and he's cluelessly in love. Well that might be the cutest thing in the world. So, what if he doesn't buy you a tiffany necklace? Screw that! It's the home made card, or the extra long hug that defines romance. At least for me. Some of you might say I'm cynical, and effing wrong. I say I appreciate the finer things in life. Forever Realistic, Sydney.

"The heart has reasons that reason cannot know."

-- Pascal

confusion, confusion, confusion

Hey! So sorry it's been a while since I've posted, but I've been staying at the school until late at night working my ass of on costumes for the upcoming show Cabaret at my school. (: Although I don't have time to blog, sewing all those costumes does give me a slim amount of time to think. In that amount of time that I have spent thinking it's been about nothing but, boys, boys, boys. Sadly that's the truth. I absolutely despise everything about it. I personally don't think that guys are worth the time of obsessing over, and that if someone really likes you then they'll approach you, so basically you have nothing to worry about. But for some reason lately they've been all I can think about. Mainly I've been thinking about two things within the boys area. What's it like to be a guy? And who the hell do I like? Of course the first one I'll never know, but the second one is the one that truly bothers me. The question is asked all the time, and everyday I give the same response. "I don't know!!!" They say you can't choose who you love, but to some extent you have to. Do I like boy A? The sweet, charming one who always know the right thing to say? Boy B? The one that knows exactly how to make me smile. Or boy C? The one that's always there no matter what. To tell you the truth I do like one more than the rest maybe, but I don't know. I still can't tell. So, enough about me! Basically what I want to know is what are your problems with the guys/girls in your life. You can contact me however just let me know, and I'll blog about it! Yours truly, Sydney.