Lost in a sea of unknowns

Ciao Interwebs!
Have you ever just felt like you have no clue what it is you want, all you know is that you need something new? That's how I've been feeling lately. Like I need something fresh and new in my life. What that something is, I have no clue. Is it a someone? Maybe but if it is someone I'm not sure who it is. I need a change. I'm bored with my life's current state. Sure, I've been partying a lot more lately but that only takes you so far. When you sober up all that fun and that thrill and that feeling is gone. I want something that stays with me. It's almost like I've been numb lately. I need something to help me feel again.
Finally Under Emotional,
Sydney

You can't break a broken heart

Hello there cyberspace. It's been months since I've been on. I honestly have no clue what's been keeping me away from you. What I have recently discovered that although it kills to get your heart broken, nothing is worse than knowing you're slowly and painfully breaking someone else's. I cannot begin to understand why anyone would ever want to break hearts. Recently, believe it or not, i have been the one doing the heartbreaking and let me tell you it sucks beyond belief. Whenever we talk, I feel as if I'm crushing everything. When you hear the tone in their voice change from happy and light to hurt it breaks your heart. When someone's face lights up when you enter a room and you know when you're done their expression will be one of pain and sadness it crushes you. I may be overdramatic, but I feel like it's important to make sure that when people have the chance to break a heart, they do it with compassion, kindness, and respect. I'm exhausted, so that's all for now. I'll write again soon!
-Sydney