without a single thought

You know how I say "a loss of words is a loss of something to believe in"? Well I honestly don't know what I currently believe in because I literally have nothing interesting to say lately. I've been going about my daily routines, and having a great time with friends, but I haven't been able to think of anything. Maybe it's because I'm somewhat stressed? I don't know. My life is pretty hectic right now, so maybe that's it, but you never know. So, in this post instead of me trying to help you; how about you try to help me? What do you want to read about? What's something that's going on in your life, and you just need a little extra push to make it better, or what's something that puts a smile on your face? Let me know, and I'll write my next post on whatever that is.
-Sydney, the girl with a loss for words for the first time.

how do i get better, once i've had the best?

Hey y'all (: the title of this post is from the song Thinking of You by Katy Perry. Lately I've been thinking a lot about things that were. Basically the past. I've been reflecting on friendships lost, stress-free days, and even boys from forever ago. All I keep asking myself is what lead all of these things to happen? What made these friendships fall apart, this love lost, and those days of glory, and smooth sailing slip away? Then I thought about all of these amazing things that are here right now. Instead of the few friends I've lost I thought about all the friends I've gained. Of course it's still upsetting that what used to be a great friendship, relationship, or year fell apart, but look at what I've gotten from all of those experiences coming to an end. I know this sounds wicked cliche but I promise that if you do the same, and stop living in the past you'll realize how great the present is. So, how do I get better once I've had the best? I don't know exactly, but for now I'm thinking of what I have right here, and right now. And you want to know the truth? What I have right now is pretty great. I hope this was somewhat useful for someone out there in cyberspace who might be having the same problem as I was. I promise there will be a more interesting post next time. mucho love.
-Sydney

highway to hell: exit unrequited love

People may say war is hell, but I say love is hell. Like Pat Benetar said "Love is a battlefield". The worst kind? The kind that's simply a one way street. The second you see them, hear them, or even when their shoulder bumps yours in the hallway your stomach is filled with butterflies. Too bad that's not what happens to them. Every little action is over analyzed into something huge. They tell you you look pretty, and BOOM you think you'll be walking down the aisle. Sorry, not so simple. Love is what is holding us back from doing such huge things with our lives. The truly determined woman is set back by nothing. Not even love. Honestly what is love? I personally say that it's a mutual feeling that comes around every so often. Then how is love unrequited? It all begins with you. If you think you're in love, but the person doesnt love you back that's your own fault. Basically I'm almost saying that you're dellusional. I've done it, you've done it, so has almost everyone in this world. What I want to know is why are we so obsessed with this abstract thing? Why do we want so badly to be wanted? I'll never understand what truly happens when a person 'falls in love', but I can try. My next mission for you is to cut it out! Seriously. Stop over analyzing, stop trying to make them love you, and stop falling so damn hard! Trust me if you put your focus in to something productive you'll feel a million times better. xo
-Sydney

under pressure

BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH. All my parents ever do is talk! They just confronted me about how now I have to pave my own path. blahblahblah. Like, really? I have to figure out what I'm doing for the first half of the summer...it's just too bad I'm not old enough to get a REAL job. My mom suggested babysitting every single day. Once a week I can understand, but every day? Isn't the whole point of having a child that YOU take care of them? Not some teenage nanny looking to make a couple bucks. My ideal first half of my summer? Sitting on the beach all day with a good book, and my laptop. Then I would go back to a beach house and watch the sunset with a pitcher of peach iced tea. Sounds good. But then again there would be something slightly boring about doing that everyday, so I guess I would try something I've never done everyday. I know I JUST posted my first personal mission, but I promise that this one will be MUCH more fun. Make a list of 50 things you want to do before you die, then figure out how to get them done as soon as possible. Hey, you gotta live like you're dying, right? I'm excited! Have fun ! -Sydney

beginners aren't always winners

So, this is my first blog...ever. I say that meaning it would be great if you could cut me some slack because the post you're about to read is well awful. Break is coming to an end, and school starts back up again tomorrow. Once again kids wake up at impossibly early hours of the day, and try to focus on the bland torturous cycle that is school. We wake up. We work. We do hours of after draining activities only to come home to piles and piles of homework. Each minute in class is as bland as the one before it. Today I realized that the school year lasts a little over 83% of the year. That's absolutely ridiculous. Sure we get 'breaks'. Breaks that include assignments, and worry about our overall grades. Although school is a treacherous experience of complete an utter uselessness I must admit that I've met some pretty amazing people. So I have a mission for myself, and anyone who reads this (if anyone reads this). Try to make the most of the experience. When you're in classes look around to your friends, and think about how great they are. I'm going to try, and tell me how it goes. Maybe school will turn out to be something more positive than we ever thought. Ciao for now!
-Sydney